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Swimming started today! It was very exciting, I must say. El and I made a bee-utiful sign and hung it on the pool deck. It didn't get near enough praise, I admit. I mentioned it a lot, but I don't really count. Practice was fun, easy, but fun. A million freshman showed up, which is good and bad. But I like the freshman, most of them. I think a few are already security breeches. What that means, I don't know. But they are. There are a lot of frosh who hadn't swum in a very long time, and that's also slightly unfortunate. But I like them. As long as they work hard, they're welcome on the team. El's shoulder hurt, again, which is very unfortunate. But it didn't hurt during summer- what does that mean? I don't know- maybe she's just psyching herself out. Probably not, though, as it really does hurt. And I believe her. She's not a injury-faker like some people I could name. I was the only senior there again. I miss last years seniors. Despite my randomly breaking into grins during practice (which isn't good swimming, because then you laugh about the fact that you're grining like a dork, and then you're underwater laughing, and that leads to drowning.), I really missed them. Which was stupid- because they weren't good captains, nor especially friendly toward the new swimmers, nor especially dedicated, but it's like I lost my older siblings. The swim team is a family, you know, and I miss them. They've swum with me for longer than Christina and Mary Kate have! And it's depressing they weren't there.
** humming my own little tune at 6:29:00 PM
